I love lying. It gives me a rush. I only tell the truth to myself. No one else. Everything thinks I'm cold. I'm not. People want me to have more of a social life. I have plenty enough to do on my own without having to pretend to listen to others move their mouths. Truly I've gotten rusty at being me. I guess this role I've been playing is getting in a little.
My true nature is much better. I love to be cold. I love to be alone. I hate people, except for a couple. Even they are annoying at times. I cringe that I have feelings that I want to see them. I wish I could be a block of ice. Unpenatrable. Maybe soon they would see my act.
They are stupid however. I will create a new character. I will see things through this character's eyes and make the appropriate reactions. But I will never get stuck there. I will return to myself. My deep state. The one where I am alone, and no one else can hear me.
I am tired of living like this. But I will. I will be bored, cry, laugh, enjoy. But that won't be me. I'll let this new character feel it. Not me, never me. I'll try it out tomorrow. See how it goes. If it works, I'll continue. If it doesn't. Well, I never fail. So it wlll.
I always include a link so here is this, for what its worth.